It’s 5 in the morning this good new year’s day. I’ve just fed and put Beau down for his first nap (he’s recently started sleeping 5-6 hours consistently overnight = *gamechanger*) and am currently pumping.
Most pump sessions I twiddle around on my phone or aimlessly sift through netflix or youtube content. For today’s pump session, I felt motivated to set some intentions for myself – but with a different approach from my usual list making. And so, since I didn’t have any paper materials on hand, I created a digital vision board for 2022 via Canva.
On this day *last year* at 5 in the morning, Charles and I were already showered and in the car to watch the sunrise from Leesylvania Park. Reading back through my blog post from that day, I was struck by the fact that I had the audacity to intro the post with “I know myself.” Ha.
Currently… just *thinking* about having to get in the car to go anywhere at 5am is exhausting lol. Annnnd, if I had to re-intro this post in a similar fashion, it would probably go a little something like “I’m getting re-familiar with myself. The new self that has emerged since becoming a mom… while also mourning the parts of my pre-mom self that I didn’t realize I would miss and naively assumed would automatically come forward with me into this new life chapter.”
Looking back on 2021, it was a life changing year. A year that reinforced the saying, A plan is a plan but that’s not always where one lands.
This year, I’m going to fully embrace that perspective and set the intention to let go and be more open to flow *with* wherever the waves of life may take me in 2022… Unless they knock up against the couple hard boundaries I’ve also set for myself this year.
Don’t get me wrong tho, I’m still gonna plan. Lol. My brain is wired to constantly think forward and plan. It’s doesn’t stop. Trust me, I’ve tried.
The difference in perspective for this year is that I want to lean into switching directions with more confidence and less anxiety when the world presents a new or better plan that I personally didn’t come up with… Especially when it comes to bridging the parts of my old self that I miss with this new self that has emerged in the past 4 months.
It’s this intention that inspired my vision board as I was putting it together this early morn. A rare but much needed quiet, creative moment to myself that I look forward to having more of this year as well.
That said, I think I’ll go make a cup of mint tea and watch the sunrise from the window before Beau wakes up for his next care session.
Wishing you a peace-filled and prosperous 2022, however that may manifest.
xo, Setarra
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