I had a friend ask me the other day “How come you haven’t posted any videos of you dancing?” She had recently found out I started a blog and thought it was a great space for me to share my “skills”.
My Response Went Something Like This: Honestly? I haven’t posted any videos of me dancing because: 1. All of the clips I have are from the past. 2. I don’t want people to think I’m showing off or full of myself … Cuz I’m not (not to be confused with being confident … That I am … Most of the time.) 3. “I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my shi*t.” -Quote courtesy of E. Badu 4. There’s a part of me that is scared that I won’t be able to dance like I used to before I tore my acl and had knee surgery … So why would I show videos of how I won’t be able to dance in the future? Kinda like False Advertisement… Naw Mean?
Her Response: Gurl … Shut That Sh*t Up! Why are you acting like a punk … Punk.
Of course she knows how to push my buttons by calling me a punk… I hate people thinking I’m a scare-dy cat. All my life, whenever I’ve been dared to do anything … I’ve done it. {With the exception of watching scary movies … I refuse … I am NOT about that life}
Sooooo in response to this passive aggressive dare, below are two clips of me dancing … I cringe watching them because the perfectionist in me always see things I could’ve done better…
Anwho … Enjoy?
yellow tee at the end…
white tee at the end …
Hopefully one day soon, I’ll be able to take class and rock out with my sock out like I used to before my injury… Until then, February is filled with me working out and going through yoga phrases, prepping for March. And then March will be filled with me taking floor barre, beginner ballet, modern & hip-hop classes. And hopefully by April, I’ll be able to progress to Intermediate level classes, etc. After going a whole year and a half without dancing, body is itching to move to a beat.
Dear Delayed Gratification:
You Kinda Suck.
xo, Setarra
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